Struggles...

Day 4 Prompt: When did you struggle?


Well, there were lots of times when I struggled. There were many times when I felt inadequate and clueless. Most of these moments were this summer at CentriKid as my first year as camp director. One particular situation sticks out in my mind where I really struggled.

While running camp at Campbell University, I came down with strep throat. It wasn't the sore throat that was so bad, it was the high temperature and the body aches that were so unbearable. I remember receiving a call at 5 am of a church group locking themselves out the their dorm. I got up, walked across campus, and unlocked their rooms. It was apparent that I was getting sick when I woke up that morning. Throughout the morning, I continued feeling worse and worse. I have never had a illness come on so fast in my entire life! In a matter of about 4 hours, I felt like I was dying. After leading adult gathering, I went and told my assistant director that I was going to have to go to the doctor. There was no possible way I could make it through the rest of the day if I didn't go. So, I drove for about an hour trying to find a clinic (our camp was in the middle of nowhere). Finally I found one, got the diagnosis, sat in a Walgreens parking lot waiting for 45 minutes, and returned to campus.

Yes, being sick was a struggle. It would be for anyone. But the part that I struggled with most was the fact the I had to be quarantined in my dorm room all day. My assistant director, Caroline, wouldn't even let me come to staff meeting. She was the voice of reason. I wanted so badly to make sure things were running smoothly, everything was taken care or, and that everything remembered to get done. This was the struggle! Not being able to do my job--my duties. I spent the rest of the day in and out of a fever, wincing in pain every time I swallowed, and thinking about what was going on outside my dorm at that moment.

During that day, I learned that the team was okay without me. Sure, there were a few things that didn't get done, but nothing major. Camp still happened and the Lord still changed lives. That day was a huge struggle for me, but I made me realize that things will get done when you have other leaders step up. This is what I love about serving with CentriKid Camps, the quality of staff we hire is second to none. Teams are teeming with leaders just waiting to step up and get things done.