Thursday, December 29, 2011
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Dreams of the Future...
What are your dreams for this next year?
This list is more of a "wants/goals/desires" list, instead of "dreams." Just go with it!
- to grow more trusting of the Lord.
- to seek the Lord more, and to rely on myself less.
- to use my degree, education. Preferably in an intermediate school.
- to be the leader that I need to be for my CentriKid team.
- to be WAY more trusting to people.
- to not hold grudges against others.
- to be a better friend.
- to be more compassionate.
- to be braver and more courageous.
- to not let fear hinder any aspect of my life.
- to have a more urgent heart for the lost.
- to be content where I am--single or not.
- to love better.
- to have my words match my heart.
- to read more books.
- to travel out West.
- to be a mentor AND a mentee.
These are just a few of the things I want to do/improve upon in 2012.
This list is more of a "wants/goals/desires" list, instead of "dreams." Just go with it!
- to grow more trusting of the Lord.
- to seek the Lord more, and to rely on myself less.
- to use my degree, education. Preferably in an intermediate school.
- to be the leader that I need to be for my CentriKid team.
- to be WAY more trusting to people.
- to not hold grudges against others.
- to be a better friend.
- to be more compassionate.
- to be braver and more courageous.
- to not let fear hinder any aspect of my life.
- to have a more urgent heart for the lost.
- to be content where I am--single or not.
- to love better.
- to have my words match my heart.
- to read more books.
- to travel out West.
- to be a mentor AND a mentee.
These are just a few of the things I want to do/improve upon in 2012.
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Food and Fun...
Where did you eat?
- I ate at one restaurant I'd never eaten at before but had heard a lot about, The Cheesecake Factory. I ate there with my CentriKid team for our staff dinner. It was fantastic!
- When I moved to Nashville, I ate this unique place called the Pfunky Griddle. It's a place where it's all-you-can-eat pancakes. You also cook them at your table, which is pretty cool.
Which blogs did you enjoy most?
I read all types of blogs. Here are a few of the blogs I read:
I read all types of blogs. Here are a few of the blogs I read:
Personal
Leadership/Ministry
Seth Godin's Blog by Seth Godin
Bring the Rain by Angie Smith
Stuff Christians Like by Jon Acuff
When did you celebrate?
Here are a few pics from when I celebrated:
Celebrated the wedding of one of my best friends, Diana, with a bridal shower.
Celebrated my college graduation.
Celebrated the beginning of CK1 2011.
Celebrated the end of our 1st week of camp.
Celebrated "Christmas in July."
Celebrated after finishing the Warrior Dash.
Friday, December 23, 2011
Gone...
Who did you miss?
I’m not really a person who “misses” people. I’m perfectly fine moving away and being away from those I love. I don’t really get attached to people, for the most part. However, two people that I did miss this year are two people who have passed away in the past 5 years—my Nanny and my Papaw.
Nanny died 5 years ago and I still miss her every day. She was one of my best friends. She was the lady I most resemble; you can ask anyone who knew her. I look like her, move like her, and talk like her. It was tough graduating from college knowing that she didn’t get to see any of it. I know it’s been 5 years, but with every new thing that happens in my life, I still miss her.
My Papaw died this summer while I was directing at CentriKid. He had a stroke in March and never really rebounded. It was the weirdest feeling having to come home for the funeral after being at camp for 3 weeks. It was tough, yet honoring, being the family member chosen to read scripture and give the eulogy. I miss my Papaw a lot, but I know that he isn’t struggling anymore.
I know you all are thankful for that incredibly uplifting post. *sarcasm* Maybe tomorrow’s post will a little more fun!
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
Catch up...
So, I've been slacking of on #Reverb11. For a while, I didn't really like the prompts and, then, I just didn't think about writing. This post of going to be kind of a "catch up" from the last week-ish of not posting.
Where did you leave a mark?
I think I felt a mark on the CentriKid team I directed this summer. I didn't know until after the summer that the things I said and had been passionate about really had stuck with some of them. I can't tell you how many times I've seen a tweet, wall post, comment, or text message that has my infamous challenge, "rock it out!" I said this multiple times a day to my team and apparently it stuck!I also think I left a mark on them in the fact that I was constantly reminding them, and myself, that camp isn't our ministry. There are 10 months out of the year when we're NOT at camp. 10 months to make a difference. 10 months to pour into others. 10 months to share what the Lord has brought us through. 10 months to spread the gospel!!! I didn't realize that my passion on this topic left a mark until I read a blog post on of my staffers, Molly, had written. She wrote about how you have to love out your faith in everyday life and that our ministry doesn't stop once camp is over. She couldn't be more true.
Who touched your heart?
I'll (try to) be quick with this one. The thing, or moment, that touched my heart the most was this summer when I helped lead to girl to Christ. First of all, I'm not a fan of that phrase "lead someone to Christ." He doesn't NEED me to do that, but hopefully you understand what I mean.
Anyway, she came down front after an amazing, Gospel-filled sermon by our camp pastor, David. Ordinarily, I didn't go down front to counsel kids. I was the camp director so I didn't have a ton of one-on-one conversations with the kids. It was the staff who spent hours a day pouring into these kids, so I left that part of the evening to them. But, on this night, all the staff was already counseling kids so I went down. This little girl walked up to me with a focused look on her face. We went outside and I asked her why she had come down front. Her response was quick and to the point, "I'm ready to accept God as my Savior. Now. Right now." I asked her a few questions to confirm that she knew what she was doing. She did. Then I asked her to pray to accept Christ. I wasn't going to do it for her or have her repeat some "magical" prayer. She began to pray and tell God that she believed in Him and she knew that she did wrong thing, but that she wanted to follow Him anyway. It was beautiful... and innocent. It was perfect. As she was praying, the tears began to flow--from both of us. When she said "amen!," She jumped into my lap and gave her the biggest hug and welcomed her as a new sister in Christ. We, then, went to told her church group leader. The leader was so happy for her and all she could do was hug and hold her. Perfect!
When were you most grateful?
There were a lot of times when I was grateful this year, but I think the most poignant memory was when my CentriKid team rallied around me when my papaw died our second week of camp. I knew it was coming, but it still hurt. My mom called right when I was about to begin our nightly staff meeting. When I came back in the auditorium, they could tell that something was wrong. I told them and they circled around me and prayed over my and my family. I felt so incredibly loved by them and could see their genuine concern. I was most grateful for them at that moment because, while at camp, they were my family. They were the ones I could turn to and be encouraged by. I love them so much!
Ok, so I've made up for a few days. I'll be better at writing in the coming days. Promise:)
Who touched your heart?
I'll (try to) be quick with this one. The thing, or moment, that touched my heart the most was this summer when I helped lead to girl to Christ. First of all, I'm not a fan of that phrase "lead someone to Christ." He doesn't NEED me to do that, but hopefully you understand what I mean.
Anyway, she came down front after an amazing, Gospel-filled sermon by our camp pastor, David. Ordinarily, I didn't go down front to counsel kids. I was the camp director so I didn't have a ton of one-on-one conversations with the kids. It was the staff who spent hours a day pouring into these kids, so I left that part of the evening to them. But, on this night, all the staff was already counseling kids so I went down. This little girl walked up to me with a focused look on her face. We went outside and I asked her why she had come down front. Her response was quick and to the point, "I'm ready to accept God as my Savior. Now. Right now." I asked her a few questions to confirm that she knew what she was doing. She did. Then I asked her to pray to accept Christ. I wasn't going to do it for her or have her repeat some "magical" prayer. She began to pray and tell God that she believed in Him and she knew that she did wrong thing, but that she wanted to follow Him anyway. It was beautiful... and innocent. It was perfect. As she was praying, the tears began to flow--from both of us. When she said "amen!," She jumped into my lap and gave her the biggest hug and welcomed her as a new sister in Christ. We, then, went to told her church group leader. The leader was so happy for her and all she could do was hug and hold her. Perfect!
When were you most grateful?
There were a lot of times when I was grateful this year, but I think the most poignant memory was when my CentriKid team rallied around me when my papaw died our second week of camp. I knew it was coming, but it still hurt. My mom called right when I was about to begin our nightly staff meeting. When I came back in the auditorium, they could tell that something was wrong. I told them and they circled around me and prayed over my and my family. I felt so incredibly loved by them and could see their genuine concern. I was most grateful for them at that moment because, while at camp, they were my family. They were the ones I could turn to and be encouraged by. I love them so much!
Ok, so I've made up for a few days. I'll be better at writing in the coming days. Promise:)
Sunday, December 11, 2011
Surprises...
Day 11 Prompt: Who surprised you?
I'm not a person who gets surprised very easily. Honestly, about the only time I can remember being truly surprised was when my mom and my best friend threw me a surprise party for my 15th birthday. Epic, I know.
I think what surprised me most this year was how close I got the my CentriKid team, the Dream Team, this summer. It was crazy, but by halfway through training week we seemed like we'd known each other for months. It was great getting to know their hearts and getting to share mine with them. From getting up early and making breakfast for 35 people to talking under shooting stars at 3 am, I learned to love them and cherish their love for children. Love you, CK1!!!! You better be "Rockin' it out!"
I'm not a person who gets surprised very easily. Honestly, about the only time I can remember being truly surprised was when my mom and my best friend threw me a surprise party for my 15th birthday. Epic, I know.
I think what surprised me most this year was how close I got the my CentriKid team, the Dream Team, this summer. It was crazy, but by halfway through training week we seemed like we'd known each other for months. It was great getting to know their hearts and getting to share mine with them. From getting up early and making breakfast for 35 people to talking under shooting stars at 3 am, I learned to love them and cherish their love for children. Love you, CK1!!!! You better be "Rockin' it out!"
Saturday, December 10, 2011
Questions...
Day 10 Prompt: What questions did you ask?
As I'm sitting here, having just thrown some things into the crock-pot for creamy chicken noodle soup for supper tonight, I'm actually not thrilled about this post because this prompt makes me think about how vulnerable I was this year. Sure I could make this post a superficial one, only typing the questions that were meaningless to life and that really resulted in little to no change, but I'm going to be very honest with the questions I really asked. Questions birthed from a strong sense of inadequacy and doubt. Doubt in people. Doubt in myself. And, regretfully, doubt in the Lord. There are few people who know how my heart struggles with these things, aside from a couple of friends and the Lord. So, here it goes. A time to be real...
What am I going to do with my life after college?
Going into student teaching, I was nervous but excited. I love kids and love teaching. This is going to sound cocky but professors praised me on how comfortable I looked teaching , even on how much of a "natural" I was. So, clearly, one would think that teaching is what I would be doing right now--wrong. I decided in March or so that I wanted to do something different (for a few years at least). I wanted to move and try something different. Something my $160,000 degree would be of no use. I wanted and felt called to apply for an internship at LifeWay. If you read my post on what I discovered, you can see how much of a struggle it was for me to justify taking the job. But I'm here in Nashville and working at LifeWay and still contemplating what to do with my life, ironically.
How on earth an I going to direct a CentriKid team?
I, honestly, didn't even understand why I was chosen for the job. I mean, give me a group of kids and I'm golden. I'm good to go! But a group of my peers, that's when I freeze up. How was I going to lead 32 people spiritually, when I felt no confidence in my spiritual leadership? How was I going to be the point-person for a camp of 900? How was I going to get hundreds of thousands of dollars of equipment and 32 sons and daughters from camp to camp traveling over 1000 miles? I didn't feel as if I could. I felt the people that hired me we either deceived by me or crazy. There was no way the Lord would call a horrible sinner like me to lead a team for His Kingdom. Would I lead the team so stray that the Lord couldn't do work? Of course not!!! That's ridiculous to think,"hindering the Lord," but it crossed my mind.
When all of my friends are getting engaged, why am I perpetually single?
This is a question I used to entertain. Wasn't I good enough to be loved? Is there something wrong with me? Heaven forbid, am I called to singleness? The great this is, I try not to stress about this anymore! When I was at Secret Church, we were immersed in the topic of Marriage, Family, Sex, and the Gospel preached by David Platt of Brook Hills Church in Birmingham, AL. For 7 straight hours, participants listened to Platt and vigorously took notes on subjects from sex trafficking to homosexuality in the church. It was during the 5th hour or so that Platt preached intensely on singleness. Something he said really resonated with me, he said, "both singleness and marriage are God's gifts... and portray the Gospel." He also said, "Singleness portrays the Christian's ultimate identity in Christ." I reveled in this encouragement! Sure, for now, my singleness will continue to attract inquiries at family gatherings, but I'm trying to be content in my singleness and use it as a way to grow closer to the Lord. I pray that my future husband is doing the same.
If you're still reading, bless your heart! I didn't write about these things as a means of a pity party to or make you look at me differently, but I told you that I wanted to be real. If anything, people can see the Lord's grace and mercy in redeeming my life for His service.
Whew... I need to go rest after this post. Have a great day, friends! I hope this got you thinking about the questions you asked in 2011.
As I'm sitting here, having just thrown some things into the crock-pot for creamy chicken noodle soup for supper tonight, I'm actually not thrilled about this post because this prompt makes me think about how vulnerable I was this year. Sure I could make this post a superficial one, only typing the questions that were meaningless to life and that really resulted in little to no change, but I'm going to be very honest with the questions I really asked. Questions birthed from a strong sense of inadequacy and doubt. Doubt in people. Doubt in myself. And, regretfully, doubt in the Lord. There are few people who know how my heart struggles with these things, aside from a couple of friends and the Lord. So, here it goes. A time to be real...
What am I going to do with my life after college?
Going into student teaching, I was nervous but excited. I love kids and love teaching. This is going to sound cocky but professors praised me on how comfortable I looked teaching , even on how much of a "natural" I was. So, clearly, one would think that teaching is what I would be doing right now--wrong. I decided in March or so that I wanted to do something different (for a few years at least). I wanted to move and try something different. Something my $160,000 degree would be of no use. I wanted and felt called to apply for an internship at LifeWay. If you read my post on what I discovered, you can see how much of a struggle it was for me to justify taking the job. But I'm here in Nashville and working at LifeWay and still contemplating what to do with my life, ironically.
How on earth an I going to direct a CentriKid team?
I, honestly, didn't even understand why I was chosen for the job. I mean, give me a group of kids and I'm golden. I'm good to go! But a group of my peers, that's when I freeze up. How was I going to lead 32 people spiritually, when I felt no confidence in my spiritual leadership? How was I going to be the point-person for a camp of 900? How was I going to get hundreds of thousands of dollars of equipment and 32 sons and daughters from camp to camp traveling over 1000 miles? I didn't feel as if I could. I felt the people that hired me we either deceived by me or crazy. There was no way the Lord would call a horrible sinner like me to lead a team for His Kingdom. Would I lead the team so stray that the Lord couldn't do work? Of course not!!! That's ridiculous to think,"hindering the Lord," but it crossed my mind.
When all of my friends are getting engaged, why am I perpetually single?
This is a question I used to entertain. Wasn't I good enough to be loved? Is there something wrong with me? Heaven forbid, am I called to singleness? The great this is, I try not to stress about this anymore! When I was at Secret Church, we were immersed in the topic of Marriage, Family, Sex, and the Gospel preached by David Platt of Brook Hills Church in Birmingham, AL. For 7 straight hours, participants listened to Platt and vigorously took notes on subjects from sex trafficking to homosexuality in the church. It was during the 5th hour or so that Platt preached intensely on singleness. Something he said really resonated with me, he said, "both singleness and marriage are God's gifts... and portray the Gospel." He also said, "Singleness portrays the Christian's ultimate identity in Christ." I reveled in this encouragement! Sure, for now, my singleness will continue to attract inquiries at family gatherings, but I'm trying to be content in my singleness and use it as a way to grow closer to the Lord. I pray that my future husband is doing the same.
If you're still reading, bless your heart! I didn't write about these things as a means of a pity party to or make you look at me differently, but I told you that I wanted to be real. If anything, people can see the Lord's grace and mercy in redeeming my life for His service.
Whew... I need to go rest after this post. Have a great day, friends! I hope this got you thinking about the questions you asked in 2011.
Friday, December 9, 2011
What Scared You in 2011...
Day 9 Prompt: When were you scared?
I can't think of a ton of times when I was scared this year. There were times when I was nervous about my future, but not exactly scared. I can, however, think of one time when I was physically scared....
At our final camp location, Norman Park, we were using the cafeteria's kitchen to cook dinner (this was all approved by our site contact). I had to go into the caf for a few things and it was really dark because I couldn't find the light switch so I was already pretty freaked out going in there anyway. As I was walking quickly around the corner towards the door, one of my sweet staffers, Jensen, popped up and scared the crap out of me. I thought I was seriously going to pee my pants!!! After I freaked out for a second we both fell on the floor laughing. Great times!
I can't think of a ton of times when I was scared this year. There were times when I was nervous about my future, but not exactly scared. I can, however, think of one time when I was physically scared....
At our final camp location, Norman Park, we were using the cafeteria's kitchen to cook dinner (this was all approved by our site contact). I had to go into the caf for a few things and it was really dark because I couldn't find the light switch so I was already pretty freaked out going in there anyway. As I was walking quickly around the corner towards the door, one of my sweet staffers, Jensen, popped up and scared the crap out of me. I thought I was seriously going to pee my pants!!! After I freaked out for a second we both fell on the floor laughing. Great times!
Thursday, December 8, 2011
Where Did You Spend Money...
Day 8 Prompt: Where did I spend money in 2011?
I felt like I was always spending money.
I spent money on graduation costs my senior year--diploma, senior gift, graduation cap and gown, etc.
I spent money on moving to Nashville-- apartment rent, furnature, water/electric, internet, etc.
Recently, I spent money on Christmas gifts.
It stinks being an adult!!!!!! AHHHH!!!!
I felt like I was always spending money.
I spent money on graduation costs my senior year--diploma, senior gift, graduation cap and gown, etc.
I spent money on moving to Nashville-- apartment rent, furnature, water/electric, internet, etc.
Recently, I spent money on Christmas gifts.
It stinks being an adult!!!!!! AHHHH!!!!
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
Remembering...
Day 7 Prompt: What do you hope to remember?
Oh gosh, there's so much I want to remember! This was a year of so many new and great things, and of changes and challenges. Here it goes!
I hope to remember...
- when I woke up during J-Term to 7 inches of snow on the ground.
- the Maryville College's only snow day in a decade.
- when my best friends and I used cafeteria trays as makeshift sleds.
- the time my friends and I made a music video to "Forget You" Glee Cast version.
- how much fun I had student teaching.
- when one of my middle school students told me something inappropriate because I "wasn't REALLY a teacher. I was fun!"
- getting tackled while student teaching.
- how tough the decision was to take my job in Nashville.
- how accomplished I felt having my thesis published in MC library.
- walking across the stage at graduation as cum laude.
- how nervous I was before training week for CentriKid.
- how dumb I felt in front of my team for the first few days.
- the bird pooping on my head and "breaking the ice" for the Dream Team.
- how quickly I fell in love with CK1.
- praying with Chloe about tough conversations at training week.
- my first week of camp without Andy there.
- how humbled I was when I was sick at Campbell University.
- when one of my best friends, Lauren, came to visit at Shocco.
- my and Kaci's epic budget ride to Shocco. Best shotty ever!!!
-how fun it was to do crazy voices with Kaci and my brother. Sparkles! YAY!!!
-Fort Time!
- how truly amazing my first year of directing a team at CentriKid was.
- what it feels like to see kids come to know the Lord. Beautiful.
- how great it was to officially move to Nashville.
- how much I freaked out when Chloe cut my feather out of my hair.
- the ridiculous "gas station" convos Lauren and I have had.
I want to remember the special moments I've had with others this year and how I've grown to learn and admire the hearts of those around me. I hope and pray that the Lord will constantly remind me of Him and his love for me and others.
You probably stopped reading quite a while back, there are so many more moments I want to remember and cherish, but there is honestly too many to type.
Oh gosh, there's so much I want to remember! This was a year of so many new and great things, and of changes and challenges. Here it goes!
I hope to remember...
- when I woke up during J-Term to 7 inches of snow on the ground.
- the Maryville College's only snow day in a decade.
- when my best friends and I used cafeteria trays as makeshift sleds.
- the time my friends and I made a music video to "Forget You" Glee Cast version.
- how much fun I had student teaching.
- when one of my middle school students told me something inappropriate because I "wasn't REALLY a teacher. I was fun!"
- getting tackled while student teaching.
- how tough the decision was to take my job in Nashville.
- how accomplished I felt having my thesis published in MC library.
- walking across the stage at graduation as cum laude.
- how nervous I was before training week for CentriKid.
- how dumb I felt in front of my team for the first few days.
- the bird pooping on my head and "breaking the ice" for the Dream Team.
- how quickly I fell in love with CK1.
- praying with Chloe about tough conversations at training week.
- my first week of camp without Andy there.
- how humbled I was when I was sick at Campbell University.
- when one of my best friends, Lauren, came to visit at Shocco.
- my and Kaci's epic budget ride to Shocco. Best shotty ever!!!
-how fun it was to do crazy voices with Kaci and my brother. Sparkles! YAY!!!
-Fort Time!
- how truly amazing my first year of directing a team at CentriKid was.
- what it feels like to see kids come to know the Lord. Beautiful.
- how great it was to officially move to Nashville.
- how much I freaked out when Chloe cut my feather out of my hair.
- the ridiculous "gas station" convos Lauren and I have had.
I want to remember the special moments I've had with others this year and how I've grown to learn and admire the hearts of those around me. I hope and pray that the Lord will constantly remind me of Him and his love for me and others.
You probably stopped reading quite a while back, there are so many more moments I want to remember and cherish, but there is honestly too many to type.
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
Who is Important to me...
Day 6 Prompt: Who was important to you?
There were several people that are/were important to me. The Lord has blessed me with people who constantly encourage me and who love me for me. There are many people that I could write about. Many that I love and care for so much. Some are friends. Some are family.
- One of the most important people to me is my mom. She loves me and cares for me, even though I'm 4 hours away. She's always been the rock of our family and for that I am so incredibly grateful.
- Another important person is my best friend, Chloe. She knows me so well and can encourage me so much. She's there listen to my successes and my hurts, but she's also there to tell me when I'm being dumb. The Lord has used her to show me what's it's like to constantly present the Gospel to others and have a true heart for people and their situations.
- My brother, Ty, is another person who is important to me. Do we argue? Sometimes. Do we pester the heck out of each other? Of course. But I love him and have loved watching him grow up into a great young man.
Without these people, and many others, my life would look different. It would be weird. I hope that you have friends and family that are important to you. Tell them they are!
Here are more people that are important to me...
There were several people that are/were important to me. The Lord has blessed me with people who constantly encourage me and who love me for me. There are many people that I could write about. Many that I love and care for so much. Some are friends. Some are family.
- One of the most important people to me is my mom. She loves me and cares for me, even though I'm 4 hours away. She's always been the rock of our family and for that I am so incredibly grateful.
- Another important person is my best friend, Chloe. She knows me so well and can encourage me so much. She's there listen to my successes and my hurts, but she's also there to tell me when I'm being dumb. The Lord has used her to show me what's it's like to constantly present the Gospel to others and have a true heart for people and their situations.
- My brother, Ty, is another person who is important to me. Do we argue? Sometimes. Do we pester the heck out of each other? Of course. But I love him and have loved watching him grow up into a great young man.
Without these people, and many others, my life would look different. It would be weird. I hope that you have friends and family that are important to you. Tell them they are!
Here are more people that are important to me...
Monday, December 5, 2011
New Discoveries...
Day 5 Prompt: What did you discover?
This a weird question. I mean, it wasn't like I went geocaching and found something cool. Am I supposed to share something tangible that I discovered? Something intelligent that enlightened me? I don't know! So I guess we'll see where this post goes, because, as of right now, I have no clue.
Something I discovered is that I'm much more of a people pleaser than I let on. While I don't mind going against the grain and doing (or saying) something off kilter, deep down, I was to please people. I want to make everyone's job easier for them, even if it's something small. If I can help inflict less pain or alleviate some pain and stress, I want to do that. This was soooo apparent to me when I was offered the job to come to intern in Nashville. I wanted so badly to take the job and to move away and try something different, but I knew how difficult it would make things on my family. I knew that from a financial standpoint, using my teaching degree and living at home would be much easier. But I felt called to come to Nashville and work at LifeWay and for CentriKid Camps. This decision weighed on me so heavily that I was physically sick for an entire week. I couldn't even eat. Every time I would try to make a decision, I would cry just thinking making life more difficult on my family. It was during this week when I discovered how much of a people pleaser I am. As you can tell, I'm in Nashville. I chose to do what I felt was right and what I felt the Lord was telling me to do. Was it difficult to tell my family this? Of course, but I'm so happy living here and living my life.
And that's what I discovered...
Something I discovered is that I'm much more of a people pleaser than I let on. While I don't mind going against the grain and doing (or saying) something off kilter, deep down, I was to please people. I want to make everyone's job easier for them, even if it's something small. If I can help inflict less pain or alleviate some pain and stress, I want to do that. This was soooo apparent to me when I was offered the job to come to intern in Nashville. I wanted so badly to take the job and to move away and try something different, but I knew how difficult it would make things on my family. I knew that from a financial standpoint, using my teaching degree and living at home would be much easier. But I felt called to come to Nashville and work at LifeWay and for CentriKid Camps. This decision weighed on me so heavily that I was physically sick for an entire week. I couldn't even eat. Every time I would try to make a decision, I would cry just thinking making life more difficult on my family. It was during this week when I discovered how much of a people pleaser I am. As you can tell, I'm in Nashville. I chose to do what I felt was right and what I felt the Lord was telling me to do. Was it difficult to tell my family this? Of course, but I'm so happy living here and living my life.
And that's what I discovered...
Sunday, December 4, 2011
Struggles...
Day 4 Prompt: When did you struggle?
Well, there were lots of times when I struggled. There were many times when I felt inadequate and clueless. Most of these moments were this summer at CentriKid as my first year as camp director. One particular situation sticks out in my mind where I really struggled.
While running camp at Campbell University, I came down with strep throat. It wasn't the sore throat that was so bad, it was the high temperature and the body aches that were so unbearable. I remember receiving a call at 5 am of a church group locking themselves out the their dorm. I got up, walked across campus, and unlocked their rooms. It was apparent that I was getting sick when I woke up that morning. Throughout the morning, I continued feeling worse and worse. I have never had a illness come on so fast in my entire life! In a matter of about 4 hours, I felt like I was dying. After leading adult gathering, I went and told my assistant director that I was going to have to go to the doctor. There was no possible way I could make it through the rest of the day if I didn't go. So, I drove for about an hour trying to find a clinic (our camp was in the middle of nowhere). Finally I found one, got the diagnosis, sat in a Walgreens parking lot waiting for 45 minutes, and returned to campus.
Yes, being sick was a struggle. It would be for anyone. But the part that I struggled with most was the fact the I had to be quarantined in my dorm room all day. My assistant director, Caroline, wouldn't even let me come to staff meeting. She was the voice of reason. I wanted so badly to make sure things were running smoothly, everything was taken care or, and that everything remembered to get done. This was the struggle! Not being able to do my job--my duties. I spent the rest of the day in and out of a fever, wincing in pain every time I swallowed, and thinking about what was going on outside my dorm at that moment.
During that day, I learned that the team was okay without me. Sure, there were a few things that didn't get done, but nothing major. Camp still happened and the Lord still changed lives. That day was a huge struggle for me, but I made me realize that things will get done when you have other leaders step up. This is what I love about serving with CentriKid Camps, the quality of staff we hire is second to none. Teams are teeming with leaders just waiting to step up and get things done.
Well, there were lots of times when I struggled. There were many times when I felt inadequate and clueless. Most of these moments were this summer at CentriKid as my first year as camp director. One particular situation sticks out in my mind where I really struggled.
While running camp at Campbell University, I came down with strep throat. It wasn't the sore throat that was so bad, it was the high temperature and the body aches that were so unbearable. I remember receiving a call at 5 am of a church group locking themselves out the their dorm. I got up, walked across campus, and unlocked their rooms. It was apparent that I was getting sick when I woke up that morning. Throughout the morning, I continued feeling worse and worse. I have never had a illness come on so fast in my entire life! In a matter of about 4 hours, I felt like I was dying. After leading adult gathering, I went and told my assistant director that I was going to have to go to the doctor. There was no possible way I could make it through the rest of the day if I didn't go. So, I drove for about an hour trying to find a clinic (our camp was in the middle of nowhere). Finally I found one, got the diagnosis, sat in a Walgreens parking lot waiting for 45 minutes, and returned to campus.
Yes, being sick was a struggle. It would be for anyone. But the part that I struggled with most was the fact the I had to be quarantined in my dorm room all day. My assistant director, Caroline, wouldn't even let me come to staff meeting. She was the voice of reason. I wanted so badly to make sure things were running smoothly, everything was taken care or, and that everything remembered to get done. This was the struggle! Not being able to do my job--my duties. I spent the rest of the day in and out of a fever, wincing in pain every time I swallowed, and thinking about what was going on outside my dorm at that moment.
During that day, I learned that the team was okay without me. Sure, there were a few things that didn't get done, but nothing major. Camp still happened and the Lord still changed lives. That day was a huge struggle for me, but I made me realize that things will get done when you have other leaders step up. This is what I love about serving with CentriKid Camps, the quality of staff we hire is second to none. Teams are teeming with leaders just waiting to step up and get things done.
Saturday, December 3, 2011
What I've Been Reading...
Day 3 Prompt: What books did you read in 2011?
I love reading, but this year I've been in a reading funk. I can't seem to get back into my love for books. There were times when I thought I was getting out of the funk, but once I finished a great book, it was back in it. I honestly attribute this to the fact that when I was in college, I read books to escape "real" homework. Weird, I know. Now that I have more free time, I'm having trouble rediscovering my passion for reading. That being said, there were a few books that I read and several that I am currently reading.
Books I Read in 2011
Gap Creek--Robert Morgan
Jumping Through Fires--David Nasser
Low Country--Anne Rivers Siddons
Twilight Series--Stephanie Meyer
Redeeming Love--Francine Rivers
Crazy Love--Francis Chan
Forgotten God--Francis Chan
The Last Song--Nicholas Sparks
Dear John--Nicholas Sparks
At First Sight--Nicholas Sparks
True Believer--Nicholas Sparks
Nights in Rodanthe--Nicholas Sparks
Books I'm Currently Reading
The Hunger Games--Suzanne Collins
21 Irrefutable Laws of Leadership--John Maxwell
A Chance to Die: The Life and Legacy of Amy Carmichael--Elisabeth Elliot
Books on My Shelf to Read
Christy--Catherine Marshall
Safe Haven--Nicholas Sparks
A Walk to Remember--Nicholas Sparks
Barefoot--Elin Hilderbrand
Adopted for Life-- Russell D. Moore
If you've read any of these, let me know what you thought. Also, comment with others I MUST read!!!
I love reading, but this year I've been in a reading funk. I can't seem to get back into my love for books. There were times when I thought I was getting out of the funk, but once I finished a great book, it was back in it. I honestly attribute this to the fact that when I was in college, I read books to escape "real" homework. Weird, I know. Now that I have more free time, I'm having trouble rediscovering my passion for reading. That being said, there were a few books that I read and several that I am currently reading.
Books I Read in 2011
Gap Creek--Robert Morgan
Jumping Through Fires--David Nasser
Low Country--Anne Rivers Siddons
Twilight Series--Stephanie Meyer
Redeeming Love--Francine Rivers
Crazy Love--Francis Chan
Forgotten God--Francis Chan
The Last Song--Nicholas Sparks
Dear John--Nicholas Sparks
At First Sight--Nicholas Sparks
True Believer--Nicholas Sparks
Nights in Rodanthe--Nicholas Sparks
Books I'm Currently Reading
The Hunger Games--Suzanne Collins
21 Irrefutable Laws of Leadership--John Maxwell
A Chance to Die: The Life and Legacy of Amy Carmichael--Elisabeth Elliot
Books on My Shelf to Read
Christy--Catherine Marshall
Safe Haven--Nicholas Sparks
A Walk to Remember--Nicholas Sparks
Barefoot--Elin Hilderbrand
Adopted for Life-- Russell D. Moore
If you've read any of these, let me know what you thought. Also, comment with others I MUST read!!!
Friday, December 2, 2011
New Friends...
Day 2 Prompt: Who did you meet in 2011?
There were tons of new people that I met throughout 2011! I met some celebrities, added to my CentriKid family, and made some new, lifelong friends.
In January, I met my new cooperating teacher, Coach Dunkel, that I'd be teaching alongside. I literally could not have chosen a better person to mentor under while teaching 700 middle schoolers. She taught me how to love children, but still be a person that was respected by them. She also reinforced that making personal connections with kdis was the way to get them to follow you as an educator. I fostered healthy relationships with my students and was able to show them that I cared for them and cared about their education.
In March, I met my second cooperating teacher, Coach Babelay. She taught me how to show tough love to my high school freshman and to not get run over by them. She showed me how to be a stong female in the male dominated profession of teaching Physical Education and Health.
In May, I officially met my 2011 CK1 CentriKid team, 32 loving, caring, hysterically funny college-aged folks who became my family for the summer. I had the priviledge of leading and learning from these people as we traveled all over the southeast ministering to children and adults. This summer I learned their hearts and they learned mine. We laughed, cried, and grew together for over 2 months.
There were tons of new people that I met throughout 2011! I met some celebrities, added to my CentriKid family, and made some new, lifelong friends.
In January, I met my new cooperating teacher, Coach Dunkel, that I'd be teaching alongside. I literally could not have chosen a better person to mentor under while teaching 700 middle schoolers. She taught me how to love children, but still be a person that was respected by them. She also reinforced that making personal connections with kdis was the way to get them to follow you as an educator. I fostered healthy relationships with my students and was able to show them that I cared for them and cared about their education.
In March, I met my second cooperating teacher, Coach Babelay. She taught me how to show tough love to my high school freshman and to not get run over by them. She showed me how to be a stong female in the male dominated profession of teaching Physical Education and Health.
In May, I officially met my 2011 CK1 CentriKid team, 32 loving, caring, hysterically funny college-aged folks who became my family for the summer. I had the priviledge of leading and learning from these people as we traveled all over the southeast ministering to children and adults. This summer I learned their hearts and they learned mine. We laughed, cried, and grew together for over 2 months.
Here is my amazing new family from the summer of 2011. Dream Team!
In August, I moved to Nashville and began my job at LifeWay. I knew quite a few people, but have met some fun ones along the way. Some of the coolest folks I've met have been the Duggars. Yep, all 20-somthing of them. Seriously, I did! Some of us working the Kids Ministry Conference even to hang out with all the kids for several hours. We played Scrabble and even taught them the "Scramble" face (see pics below). We got to see their bus they travel in and hear about their lives. I asked them about life and their walks with Christ. we talked football and photography. They were a fascinating family, not a ton different than any normal-sized one. Below are some pictures of our awesome time together!
These are just a few of the many folks I've met over the course of 2011. Until tomorrow, friends!
Thursday, December 1, 2011
Beginning...
Well, it's officially day 1 of #reverb11, so here it goes!
Prompt: Where did 2011 begin?
2010 ended and 2011 began with one of my best friends, Lauren. She drove up from Alabama to spend a few days in Gatlinburg. We ate dinner, walked around town, watched fireworks, and I'm pretty sure stayed up way later than necessary giggling like 5th graders. It was both of our first times to ever be in Gatlinburg to see New Year's festivities. Yes, even though I've lived there my entire life, I've never taken part in the craziness of New Years. Lauren and I even ran into another staffer from our 2010 CentriKid team, so we had to document the event.
Prompt: Where did 2011 begin?
2010 ended and 2011 began with one of my best friends, Lauren. She drove up from Alabama to spend a few days in Gatlinburg. We ate dinner, walked around town, watched fireworks, and I'm pretty sure stayed up way later than necessary giggling like 5th graders. It was both of our first times to ever be in Gatlinburg to see New Year's festivities. Yes, even though I've lived there my entire life, I've never taken part in the craziness of New Years. Lauren and I even ran into another staffer from our 2010 CentriKid team, so we had to document the event.
Peter happened to be in town, as well, for the holiday. So fun getting to reunite! CK4Life!
Now that I've relived where I was physically in the beginning of 2011, where was I mentally and spiritually?
Mentally, I was preparing to student teach in a middle school and high school. I was busy writing lesson plans and thinking about graduating in 6 months. Typical college senior, I suppose.
Spiritually, I was trying to trust the Lord as to my future plans. I remember stressing about getting a teaching job and still working Centrikid Camps. It wasn't until several months later that my plans (for at least the next year) were set in place--my internship at LifeWay.
And that's where I began 2011, a year of new things, of transitions, of firsts, of friends, of fun. Stay tuned for more on 2011!
Mentally, I was preparing to student teach in a middle school and high school. I was busy writing lesson plans and thinking about graduating in 6 months. Typical college senior, I suppose.
Spiritually, I was trying to trust the Lord as to my future plans. I remember stressing about getting a teaching job and still working Centrikid Camps. It wasn't until several months later that my plans (for at least the next year) were set in place--my internship at LifeWay.
And that's where I began 2011, a year of new things, of transitions, of firsts, of friends, of fun. Stay tuned for more on 2011!
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